“I don’t want any new clothes,” I’d tell John when he asked if I’d like to go shopping. “Why not?” he’d ask. “I’m losing weight,” I’d say. Then he’d try and encourage me to get a few things just to tide me over until that magical day when I finally lost weight would arrive but I staunchly refused. I did not want to buy new clothes and there was no way he was going to make me!
So instead of buying some new jumpers to “tide me over” until the weight magically fell off I’d continue wearing my old, faded, too small tunic tops which I paired with an unattractive pair of stretch knit pants.
Why didn’t I want to buy new clothes? And when I say buy new clothes I don’t mean an entire new wardrobe, but perhaps a top or two, and maybe another pair of larger stretch pants. We wouldn’t blow our budget by spending $25 dollars on some fresh plus sized clothing. John was trying to gently encourage me to look my best at the weight I currently was.
What held me back? There were a few things.
- I honestly desired to lose weight
- I felt embarrassed shopping in the plus sized departments
- I hated the clothing styles
- It felt like I was giving up
Buying new, bigger clothes made me feel as though I was giving up. So I desperately hung onto my old faded, bleached out articles of clothing just hoping I would magically be able to buy a regular sized pair of pants again before I died. That’s really how I felt. My poor clothes began looking worse and worse. They got too tight, they were unflattering, and because I hung onto my extra 150 pounds for 10 years, went out of style. I often had to resort to wearing big men’s t-shirts which, believe it or not, were tight. Here’s one of them. (It’s one of three articles of clothing I saved after I lost weight.)
Unfortunately, no matter how hard I resisted, I eventually would have to give in and buy a few new items of clothing. But then the unthinkable happened. I couldn’t fit into the clothes in the store anymore. Oh, the 3X and 4X shirts would fit (barely) but there were no pants that were carried in department stores that fit. So I stopped buying pants at all and made jumpers. It was hard.
Now I really didn’t need to go shopping because I couldn’t. When I outgrew a jumper I just sewed another one. Here’s a shirt I used to wear under many of my jumpers – whether it looked good with them or not.
I wish I hadn’t been so adamant to wait to spend some time and money on my appearance until I thought I “had it all together.” I look back over those years with embarrassment on how some of my casual clothes looked. I wanted to encourage you to spend a little money and make sure that you look and feel the best you can right where you are. Feeling good about yourself shouldn’t be tied to just your appearance. Feeling good about yourself should come from loving who you are right where you are. What are your thoughts on the whole clothing issue while losing weight? Buy or wait? Diane
If you are interested, check out my family blog! Just posted pics/recipe of whole wheat pancakes and what the kids thought!