Food was a treat to me.
I anticipated rewarding myself with high-fat, high-calorie treats. If I had a hard day at work – I treated myself with a pan of brownies. I’d sit down and eat the whole pan quickly, the whole time thinking about how I had waited for hours for this treat. I’m not sure that I even enjoyed those brownies because I ate them so quickly.
Once the children started coming along, I treated myself all day long. Had a sleepless night? Eat some cake. Kids running around all day long? Eat a pound of M&M’s. Stressful phone call? Eat a bag of chips.
Food was one way I rewarded or treated myself in life. On some level I understood that treating myself with food wasn’t a good idea, but that didn’t stop me. I vividly remember thinking about how I “shouldn’t” eat so much while eating junk food.
I remember visiting one of the many Weight Watchers meetings I attended where the leader talked about treating ourselves with something other than food. Cynically I sat there, spilling over the chair, thinking to myself, “She doesn’t know what she is talking about.” I understand those snide thoughts were my way of dealing with my own lack of discipline and obesity–but I still thought it. I remember leaving that very meeting and heading through McDonald’s for two sausage biscuits with hash browns. I needed a “treat” after spending the week trying to deny myself.
Year after year I struggled with my weight and my attitude towards food.
When I finally started losing weight, I remembered that Weight Watchers meeting. Instead of scoffing and dismissing her advice as I had all those years before, I thought about whether or not she had a point. Should I try and find non-food treats to reward myself as I met some of my goals?
Thankfully, I belatedly took her advice and did plan several non-food treats for myself along my way down the scale.
I chose simple, inexpensive things like a new book, a $1.00 movie date with John or a $10.00 shirt. I didn’t choose brownies, cake or ice cream. The benefits of choosing a non-food treat were far reaching. I learned to disassociate food from treating myself. It’s something I’ve been happy to continue throughout the years.
How do you treat yourself? Did you ever treat yourself with food? Diane